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.Tuesday, February 2, 2010 ' ♥
♥ : the little tears; double meanings
the little tears; double meanings
Hmm, sometimes I wonder if the words that had passed previously between us were the truth. Sometimes, I'm hurt so badly by what had been promised but never been carried out. I know we love each other but sometimes I wonder if the love is evenly spread out.
Right now, it's spread four-three with no seven in between. It hurts to know that despite my efforts to love each and everyone evenly, you don't seem to want to be loved.
Saying that I won't lose one of the most precious people in my life because she won't ditch me was an understatement. Despite you not being able to see it, it's clearly displayed to me that I've lost her.
It hurts to know that there's no one that I could really share whatever I need to say to because in my opinion, you've robbed me of her. I doubt it's your fault that it happened but on the other hand, I do blame you at the same time.
I have a feeling that if you read this, you would know who you are but I can't hate you despite the fact that there is a little burning inside.
Sometimes, I want to shut the toilet door and sit inside and cry and cry for hours or just read a sad book just so the tears would come out but I hold it all in. I force myself to be stronger that the weak, emotional female I know I am.
You don't know this and I have a feeling that the love between us has grown thin.
Sometimes, it hurts to see you and then you ignore me.
I might be the source of whatever you're feeling, I don't know. I just have a feeling I am.
But the ignorance grates on my nerves. Maybe it's your intention. I don't know.
I wonder if it's done intentionally to push me away.
For as long as I can remember, I've hidden myself. I'm less open now. I put up a facade because I love you and I don't want you to see what I'm purposely hiding underneath.
There are times when tears find themselves out but I still hold them back. No use wasting it for something that I don't really understand.
Maybe if we weren't apart. But it seems that the three of us out of seven have been severely neglected. Maybe we didn't notice it before but you were alpha female and we were forever in your shadow. Not that that's a bad thing. We're content with where we are because of our love.
I don't want what had happened to me in primary school to be repeated again but I don't think that is possible.
Sometimes, I wonder if the looks you shoot me are looks of annoyance or contempt or just pure irritance. Sometimes, I just want to shy away and hide but there's no one else I can turn to. No one else who would accept me for who I am.
Yet, I am perfectly content living as a hermit. But not when I know that those I love are still around and breathing.
Maybe I should just shy away and hide.
After all, I've already lost one of the most important persons in my life.
Maybe I should begin a diary. I've got no where to throw all my pains, thoughts and the likes. You used to be my sounding board but not any longer.
I'm so lost.
Maybe I should just shed a few tears to relieve myself of this aching and put it behind me. I still have people who love me all the same but I miss the love we used to share.
You used to shout the name of a different person when you needed to run yet now you call her name.
Maybe you do it on purpose. Maybe you don't notice that by doing that, I die a little further.
You have grown so attached that the rest of us seem ditched.
Maybe I should say that instead of a four-three, it's more of a three-four.
Maybe you haven't realised it.
Maybe you have.
I don't know what to feel anymore.
If I decide to not be with you guys anymore, I might have had the wrong message and then you'll wonder what's wrong.
I really don't know what to feel anymore. I'll just have to wait and see.
Right now, I'm in one of those dilemmas in those cliched teenage dramas.
Maybe they're not so cliched after all.
Much love and appreciation,
Lynxoxo
Hmm, sometimes I wonder if the words that had passed previously between us were the truth. Sometimes, I'm hurt so badly by what had been promised but never been carried out. I know we love each other but sometimes I wonder if the love is evenly spread out.
Right now, it's spread four-three with no seven in between. It hurts to know that despite my efforts to love each and everyone evenly, you don't seem to want to be loved.
Saying that I won't lose one of the most precious people in my life because she won't ditch me was an understatement. Despite you not being able to see it, it's clearly displayed to me that I've lost her.
It hurts to know that there's no one that I could really share whatever I need to say to because in my opinion, you've robbed me of her. I doubt it's your fault that it happened but on the other hand, I do blame you at the same time.
I have a feeling that if you read this, you would know who you are but I can't hate you despite the fact that there is a little burning inside.
Sometimes, I want to shut the toilet door and sit inside and cry and cry for hours or just read a sad book just so the tears would come out but I hold it all in. I force myself to be stronger that the weak, emotional female I know I am.
You don't know this and I have a feeling that the love between us has grown thin.
Sometimes, it hurts to see you and then you ignore me.
I might be the source of whatever you're feeling, I don't know. I just have a feeling I am.
But the ignorance grates on my nerves. Maybe it's your intention. I don't know.
I wonder if it's done intentionally to push me away.
For as long as I can remember, I've hidden myself. I'm less open now. I put up a facade because I love you and I don't want you to see what I'm purposely hiding underneath.
There are times when tears find themselves out but I still hold them back. No use wasting it for something that I don't really understand.
Maybe if we weren't apart. But it seems that the three of us out of seven have been severely neglected. Maybe we didn't notice it before but you were alpha female and we were forever in your shadow. Not that that's a bad thing. We're content with where we are because of our love.
I don't want what had happened to me in primary school to be repeated again but I don't think that is possible.
Sometimes, I wonder if the looks you shoot me are looks of annoyance or contempt or just pure irritance. Sometimes, I just want to shy away and hide but there's no one else I can turn to. No one else who would accept me for who I am.
Yet, I am perfectly content living as a hermit. But not when I know that those I love are still around and breathing.
Maybe I should just shy away and hide.
After all, I've already lost one of the most important persons in my life.
Maybe I should begin a diary. I've got no where to throw all my pains, thoughts and the likes. You used to be my sounding board but not any longer.
I'm so lost.
Maybe I should just shed a few tears to relieve myself of this aching and put it behind me. I still have people who love me all the same but I miss the love we used to share.
You used to shout the name of a different person when you needed to run yet now you call her name.
Maybe you do it on purpose. Maybe you don't notice that by doing that, I die a little further.
You have grown so attached that the rest of us seem ditched.
Maybe I should say that instead of a four-three, it's more of a three-four.
Maybe you haven't realised it.
Maybe you have.
I don't know what to feel anymore.
If I decide to not be with you guys anymore, I might have had the wrong message and then you'll wonder what's wrong.
I really don't know what to feel anymore. I'll just have to wait and see.
Right now, I'm in one of those dilemmas in those cliched teenage dramas.
Maybe they're not so cliched after all.
I don't know what to do.
I'm so lost.
Much love and appreciation,
Lynxoxo
creating mischief@4:20 AM
.Sunday, January 31, 2010 ' ♥
♥ : welcome to addiction; all over again
welcome to addiction; all over again
Funny, despite the fact that I've hated KPop for as long as I can remember...
It takes a lot of my pride and ego to admit that I've fallen madly and deeply in love with the one and only Super Junior. I used to be quite okay with DBSK and hated SuJu but then, Neorago (It's You) made me fall in love with Super Junior.
And, I've fallen deeply and madly in love with KyuHyun from the very first moment I saw the drama version of Neorago.
So, now, as well as squealing over NewS and Hey! Say! JUMP, I squeal for Super Junior as well. Though I may not call myself as an E.L.F. (Ever Lasting Friend), I still take pride in having fallen in love with Super Junior.
I cannot count the amount of times I've sat in front of the computer and watched every performance of Neorago there is on Youtube and how many times I've squealed over KyuHyun, DongHae, EunHyuk, YeSung and Wookie. (I would say KiBum but he doesn't appear in lives a lot. Gah!)
Yes, I cannot choose between these lovables but I can tell you that KyuHyun ultimately tops my list.
But no one can ever top NewS.
They'll be my babyies for life and nothing can break me of my love for these boys full of pure and uncensored member ai.
So, goes to say, I'm definitely going for the Super Junior concert come 20th of March despite the concert being two days before the stuuupid first term exam. What a bummer right? But, I'm not telling my mom about it yet...
I want to be able to go for their concert.
It is extremely vital as I bet that this is the only time they will ever come down for a proper concert instead of being here for some event.
So!
MustgoMustgoMustgo.
And I pray they have awesome merchandise there since I've no idea what they sell at SMEntertaiment concerts. I only know what they sell at JE concerts.
If anyone knows, do tell me so I can plan.
And yes, I'm getting my NewS and Hey! Say! JUMP calendars soon.
Anyone going for SuJu's concert, drop me a message and we'll meet, yeah?
Muchloveandappreciation,
Lynxoxo
Funny, despite the fact that I've hated KPop for as long as I can remember...
It takes a lot of my pride and ego to admit that I've fallen madly and deeply in love with the one and only Super Junior. I used to be quite okay with DBSK and hated SuJu but then, Neorago (It's You) made me fall in love with Super Junior.
And, I've fallen deeply and madly in love with KyuHyun from the very first moment I saw the drama version of Neorago.
So, now, as well as squealing over NewS and Hey! Say! JUMP, I squeal for Super Junior as well. Though I may not call myself as an E.L.F. (Ever Lasting Friend), I still take pride in having fallen in love with Super Junior.
I cannot count the amount of times I've sat in front of the computer and watched every performance of Neorago there is on Youtube and how many times I've squealed over KyuHyun, DongHae, EunHyuk, YeSung and Wookie. (I would say KiBum but he doesn't appear in lives a lot. Gah!)
Yes, I cannot choose between these lovables but I can tell you that KyuHyun ultimately tops my list.
But no one can ever top NewS.
They'll be my babyies for life and nothing can break me of my love for these boys full of pure and uncensored member ai.
So, goes to say, I'm definitely going for the Super Junior concert come 20th of March despite the concert being two days before the stuuupid first term exam. What a bummer right? But, I'm not telling my mom about it yet...
I want to be able to go for their concert.
It is extremely vital as I bet that this is the only time they will ever come down for a proper concert instead of being here for some event.
So!
MustgoMustgoMustgo.
And I pray they have awesome merchandise there since I've no idea what they sell at SMEntertaiment concerts. I only know what they sell at JE concerts.
If anyone knows, do tell me so I can plan.
And yes, I'm getting my NewS and Hey! Say! JUMP calendars soon.
Anyone going for SuJu's concert, drop me a message and we'll meet, yeah?
Muchloveandappreciation,
Lynxoxo
~KyuHyun FTW!~
creating mischief@1:28 AM
.Thursday, January 28, 2010 ' ♥
♥ : don't ask; a little hurt inside
don't ask; a little hurt inside
I guess that many of you will be able to guess as to why I hurt on the inside. It's a real silly reason, really but I won't voice it out.
Let's say it's linked to squealing-ness and jumping like a mad fool.
See the connection yet?
No?
That's your problem. I'm not going to directly state why I hurt. It'll make myself feel rather stupid. I feel like crying but I don't feel that it's a very valid reason to shed my tears on.
I'm wanting to see if I might be able to persuade the head honcho to allow me to be a part of it...if SHE wants to go ask that we get it. I was told that SHE wanted to do it but I'm not too sure now.
My mom said to ask early so that we might get a guaranteed place. And what's more, I feel so extremely betrayed. This is something I won't explain. It's something that if I told to the world, it'll make me seem like a spoilt.
Lemme hope the opportunity comes for me next year.
We'll see how it goes and if we can ask to be a part of it.
Depends also on whether SHE is willing to tag along and be part of it. Just a presence...I don't know her. She seems to be slightly different nowadays.
And what more...it's guaranteed that two classes will be...so we might not be a part of it either since the class is like pure eighty something people added together.
I feel like shedding tears. It seriously hurts so bad.
I've been waiting forever for this. I guess most people have.
And a spoilt brat class wants to mogok. Whatever, silly class.
And in case you haven't figured it yet, it has something to do with words that begin with the letter N and J.
Go figure.
I guess that many of you will be able to guess as to why I hurt on the inside. It's a real silly reason, really but I won't voice it out.
Let's say it's linked to squealing-ness and jumping like a mad fool.
See the connection yet?
No?
That's your problem. I'm not going to directly state why I hurt. It'll make myself feel rather stupid. I feel like crying but I don't feel that it's a very valid reason to shed my tears on.
I'm wanting to see if I might be able to persuade the head honcho to allow me to be a part of it...if SHE wants to go ask that we get it. I was told that SHE wanted to do it but I'm not too sure now.
My mom said to ask early so that we might get a guaranteed place. And what's more, I feel so extremely betrayed. This is something I won't explain. It's something that if I told to the world, it'll make me seem like a spoilt.
Lemme hope the opportunity comes for me next year.
We'll see how it goes and if we can ask to be a part of it.
Depends also on whether SHE is willing to tag along and be part of it. Just a presence...I don't know her. She seems to be slightly different nowadays.
And what more...it's guaranteed that two classes will be...so we might not be a part of it either since the class is like pure eighty something people added together.
I feel like shedding tears. It seriously hurts so bad.
I've been waiting forever for this. I guess most people have.
And a spoilt brat class wants to mogok. Whatever, silly class.
And in case you haven't figured it yet, it has something to do with words that begin with the letter N and J.
Go figure.
creating mischief@4:06 AM
.Thursday, January 21, 2010 ' ♥
♥ : three years of everlastingness and more to come
three years of everlastingness and more to come
Happy Birthday to Korean-obsessed Sue Lynn!
I don't have many of you since we barely camwhore with my camera =)
The one whom I love the most out of all the six of us.
The one who never fails to cheer me up just with a blurr look.
The one who listened and never criticised.
The one who opened her heart and let us in.
The one who borrows my books.
The one whom I introduced to Twilight.
The one who fangirl-ed with me over it and then hated it together.
The one I would accompany to the end of the world if it was even just a wild goose chase.
The one I've known and shared a strong friendship for three years.
Hey, Miss Mah. You're finally sixteen and growing older. You're the oldest out of all of us and should be the mommy yet Shu Han and I have to mommy you.
Despite being sixteen, we still love you the same.
When I first met you...I can't even remember how we met.
I know I only grew close to you because of Cheryl and Laura. And then we grew closer in Form 2 when we decided to sit together. And then we formed the six of us in Form 3.
We've been thrown into different classes yet the bond is still there. Hoping it will never falter, woman because we're supposed to grow old together and my kids are supposed to walk pass your office and ask to visit Aunty Sue Lynn but I will tell them that unless you want to be examined, you kids do not visit Aunty Sue Lynn during office hours.
We Love You despite your numerous faults because each of us has our own. ;p
So, Happy Birthday, dearest darling. We'll always be here for you as you grow old, lose teeth, grow white hair and grow senile. =) Because we all will still be crazy when we're old.
From the one who will never love you less. =) Lyn
creating mischief@3:43 AM
.Friday, January 15, 2010 ' ♥
♥ : no longer stupid; i trusted you but not anymore
no longer stupid; i trusted you but not anymore
I said that I would post this sometime once I got over You. Well, I've finally gotten over You and here's the promised post. I'm not sure if it'll be long or short. Read at your own risk?
Coming to apologize to me and admit that You had feelings for her won't change whatever had happened between us. I've finally accepted that all of it is a giant lie. Unfortunately, You didn't appreciate the intimacy and care that I had to offer and You just dumped me aside, playing with me when You knew that it would hurt me. Well, You've just lost a lot of what I have to offer and it'll never be given back.
Even apologizing now, I don't see any sincerity in it. You were just extremely stuupid. You just wanted to see how it would be for a girl to return Your 'love', eh? I won't accept Your apology. Live with the guilt that You ruined a nice little fifteen year old girl. Live with the fact that You can be so heartless. Yet, I doubt You'd even bother to remember about me after this. And You call yourself a Christian. If You never had any feelings for me, You should have said so from the start instead of leading me on.
I can never erase these things but they can be shoved to the back of my mind where it will stay in the little forgotten crevice admist many other happier memories. After all, You're so not worth my time. I seriously hate You now, you know.
I never thought I would hate someone just for breaking my heart but unfortunately, I seriously hate You. After all that intimacy, You can still be cold and aloof to me the next day. Shows how much emotion You have for someone who has given her Your heart.
And all this while of having sweet-talked me, You just wanted to see if she loves You. Just so You know, You're chasing an empty dream. She's already partnered with someone and she loves him. You're stuuupid for liking someone who's already been possessed. Lusting for another man's possession? Well, we're humans.
And just so You know, she'll like you as nothing more than a friend. So, give up and stop dreaming. Thinking back, I wonder how I could have fallen for you. Thinking back, I now realise that You are a freeking male chavunist and a freeking dominator. In love, there's no equality for You. Thinking back, I realised that You had been trying to dominate me and I hoped that you failed for I'm not some weak-minded woman.
As far as I know, my greatest asset is my brain and I'm proud of being smart. If You can't clean up Your act and practice self-restraint, You're never going anywhere in life. You're rude and extremely insufferable. You hurt tons of people around You but You don't realise. J didn't deserve Your wrath back at camp. You made him the way he was. That, I now realise. Live with that.
And a God-fearing Christian wouldn't have done what You did to me. Live with that thought too.
Saying that I was right and You were wrong and that You really did have feelings for her really makes me want to laugh. What use is there telling me now? As I said, I betrayed my own heart and my rules for You yet did You prove anything to me? You failed that test. I was stuupid. I admit.
And the way You speak to me. As if I'm dim-witted. What I first met You, the way You spoke about things made me think that You were rather intellectual. Unfortunately, A found you arrogant and a boaster. I didn't see that. I thought it was smart of You to have debated with me. I liked someone with knowledge.
Looking back, I guess I had been blind with amazement. A was right. You are arrogant and a boaster. I guess that's why I hate speaking to you. I'm not some dim-witted female who is going to agree with whatever You say. I'm not submissive. Keep that in mind.
If you want some blonde female who can't think for herself, then go ahead. If You'd really gotten to know me, You'd have known that when I get angry/frustrated, my mouth becomes really sharp.
Unfortunately, You never bothered to get to know me. You just wanted me because I was 'cheap' in Your words, yes? Well, F.Y.I., You can't kiss for peanuts and Your mouth is the grossest thing in the world.
Wet kisses are sloppy, disgusting and unprofessional. Get a life before chasing a female. You know zero about wooing a female. Grow up and develop some balls. Immature males like You are a real disgrace to the male race.
I know males who are way more beautiful on the inside and outside than You are and they don't use either to take advantage of a genteel heart of a female. Be a gentleman and grow up. Dressing formally and being in the top class doesn't instantly make You smart nor does it erase Your past mistakes.
And being in the top class just because You want to be on par with me shows Your desperation. With 4As and an attitude like Yours, don't dream that you'll be successful in Science class. You're better off where You're orginally put.
Having four As is not the issue, it's Your attitude.
And having a brain counts for something. Women love brains and You have zero. Intellect is something prized and yet You don't appreciate it and hone it.
I don't care if Your parents threw you out whatsoever or Your grandmother died. That is no excuse for not studying or being a good person. Poorer people have achieved much more in life and you with a nice house in a heavily guarded area can't even make use of what You have been given, You don't deserve it.
And I seriously think You lied to me about NewS. Oh well. I gave up trusting You a long time ago. You didn't appreciate my trust so You're not going to get it. You took it and trampled on it. I hate You. I hate You to the bottom of my guts.
So, now, to pay back for my carelessness, You're going to go into my book. And yes, You're going to be the villian. After what You did, I think You deserved it. So, be happy that I made You part of my life and my novel. It is going to be epic.
So, You'd better watch out, W.
I'm not someone you can mess with and get away with it. I might bawl and make a huge fuss at first but my brain is crude and shrewd in ways You can't imagine.
It's sharp and poisonous.
Don't forget. I'll always be watching. For when You're at your weakest and that's when I'll strike.
You think that I'm a weak-willed woman. Well, wait and see. I'll get You so bad that You'd wish You had never laid eyes on me.
You'll be sorry You ever decided to play with me.
I said that I would post this sometime once I got over You. Well, I've finally gotten over You and here's the promised post. I'm not sure if it'll be long or short. Read at your own risk?
Coming to apologize to me and admit that You had feelings for her won't change whatever had happened between us. I've finally accepted that all of it is a giant lie. Unfortunately, You didn't appreciate the intimacy and care that I had to offer and You just dumped me aside, playing with me when You knew that it would hurt me. Well, You've just lost a lot of what I have to offer and it'll never be given back.
Even apologizing now, I don't see any sincerity in it. You were just extremely stuupid. You just wanted to see how it would be for a girl to return Your 'love', eh? I won't accept Your apology. Live with the guilt that You ruined a nice little fifteen year old girl. Live with the fact that You can be so heartless. Yet, I doubt You'd even bother to remember about me after this. And You call yourself a Christian. If You never had any feelings for me, You should have said so from the start instead of leading me on.
I can never erase these things but they can be shoved to the back of my mind where it will stay in the little forgotten crevice admist many other happier memories. After all, You're so not worth my time. I seriously hate You now, you know.
I never thought I would hate someone just for breaking my heart but unfortunately, I seriously hate You. After all that intimacy, You can still be cold and aloof to me the next day. Shows how much emotion You have for someone who has given her Your heart.
And all this while of having sweet-talked me, You just wanted to see if she loves You. Just so You know, You're chasing an empty dream. She's already partnered with someone and she loves him. You're stuuupid for liking someone who's already been possessed. Lusting for another man's possession? Well, we're humans.
And just so You know, she'll like you as nothing more than a friend. So, give up and stop dreaming. Thinking back, I wonder how I could have fallen for you. Thinking back, I now realise that You are a freeking male chavunist and a freeking dominator. In love, there's no equality for You. Thinking back, I realised that You had been trying to dominate me and I hoped that you failed for I'm not some weak-minded woman.
As far as I know, my greatest asset is my brain and I'm proud of being smart. If You can't clean up Your act and practice self-restraint, You're never going anywhere in life. You're rude and extremely insufferable. You hurt tons of people around You but You don't realise. J didn't deserve Your wrath back at camp. You made him the way he was. That, I now realise. Live with that.
And a God-fearing Christian wouldn't have done what You did to me. Live with that thought too.
Saying that I was right and You were wrong and that You really did have feelings for her really makes me want to laugh. What use is there telling me now? As I said, I betrayed my own heart and my rules for You yet did You prove anything to me? You failed that test. I was stuupid. I admit.
And the way You speak to me. As if I'm dim-witted. What I first met You, the way You spoke about things made me think that You were rather intellectual. Unfortunately, A found you arrogant and a boaster. I didn't see that. I thought it was smart of You to have debated with me. I liked someone with knowledge.
Looking back, I guess I had been blind with amazement. A was right. You are arrogant and a boaster. I guess that's why I hate speaking to you. I'm not some dim-witted female who is going to agree with whatever You say. I'm not submissive. Keep that in mind.
If you want some blonde female who can't think for herself, then go ahead. If You'd really gotten to know me, You'd have known that when I get angry/frustrated, my mouth becomes really sharp.
Unfortunately, You never bothered to get to know me. You just wanted me because I was 'cheap' in Your words, yes? Well, F.Y.I., You can't kiss for peanuts and Your mouth is the grossest thing in the world.
Wet kisses are sloppy, disgusting and unprofessional. Get a life before chasing a female. You know zero about wooing a female. Grow up and develop some balls. Immature males like You are a real disgrace to the male race.
I know males who are way more beautiful on the inside and outside than You are and they don't use either to take advantage of a genteel heart of a female. Be a gentleman and grow up. Dressing formally and being in the top class doesn't instantly make You smart nor does it erase Your past mistakes.
And being in the top class just because You want to be on par with me shows Your desperation. With 4As and an attitude like Yours, don't dream that you'll be successful in Science class. You're better off where You're orginally put.
Having four As is not the issue, it's Your attitude.
And having a brain counts for something. Women love brains and You have zero. Intellect is something prized and yet You don't appreciate it and hone it.
I don't care if Your parents threw you out whatsoever or Your grandmother died. That is no excuse for not studying or being a good person. Poorer people have achieved much more in life and you with a nice house in a heavily guarded area can't even make use of what You have been given, You don't deserve it.
And I seriously think You lied to me about NewS. Oh well. I gave up trusting You a long time ago. You didn't appreciate my trust so You're not going to get it. You took it and trampled on it. I hate You. I hate You to the bottom of my guts.
So, now, to pay back for my carelessness, You're going to go into my book. And yes, You're going to be the villian. After what You did, I think You deserved it. So, be happy that I made You part of my life and my novel. It is going to be epic.
So, You'd better watch out, W.
I'm not someone you can mess with and get away with it. I might bawl and make a huge fuss at first but my brain is crude and shrewd in ways You can't imagine.
It's sharp and poisonous.
Don't forget. I'll always be watching. For when You're at your weakest and that's when I'll strike.
You think that I'm a weak-willed woman. Well, wait and see. I'll get You so bad that You'd wish You had never laid eyes on me.
You'll be sorry You ever decided to play with me.
Muchloveandappreciation,
Lynxoxo
Lynxoxo
creating mischief@8:43 PM
.Sunday, January 10, 2010 ' ♥
♥ : a flair for words; an advertisement of sorts
a flair for words; an advertisement of sorts
Two Hey! Say! JUMP fics. Written really recently. They've been published on LiveJournal. You don't have to know Hey! Say! JUMP to read my fics. Just putting it up here in case anyone's interested in reading. One's a Yuto/OC fiction and another is JUMP/OCs fiction. Enjoy, ne, minna? Btw, theivorykeys is my LJ username. =)
A Forbidden Rhapsody
Title: A Forbidden Rhapsody
Author: theivorykeys
Fandom: Hey! Say! JUMP
Pairing: Nakajima Yuto/OC
Genre: Romance, Fantasy, Suspense, Adventure
Rating: PG-13 (For language and fight scenes)
Disclaimer:Yuu-chan is mine but you can have the others. Nothing but the OC and plot.
Type: Multi-chapter
Summary: Elementals are all male. An strange incident on New Year's Day leads to a discovery of a strong-willed, hard-headed, orphaned and adopted female Elemental. Her Element is unique and the only one to have ever existed. Yet, the person she's destined to be with is the only person who cannot touch her. Nakajima Yuto is drawn instantly but he has no idea why. Sparks fly and one wonders if they have been destined by the stars.
Chapter 1: It's just a normal reaction to a pretty boy, I told myself.
Chapter 2: "In a way, you're saying that I'm pretty?"
Chapter 3:It didn't at all speak of a bond of romance.
Fabrications of a Music Video
Title: Fabrications of a Music Video
Author: theivorykeys
Fandom: Hey! Say! JUMP
Pairing: NakajimaYuto/OC, YamadaRyosuke/OC, ChinenYuuri/OC, OkamotoKeito/OC, MorimotoRyutaro/OC, AriokaDaiki/OC, InooKei/OC, YaotomeHikaru/OC, TakakiYuya/OC, YabuKato/OC
Rating: PG (For language)
Disclaimer: I claimYuu-chan and nothing but the plot and OCs.
Type: Multi-chapter
Summary: No one knows who they really are. Some say they are just Shadows. Even the Hey! Say! JUMP boys have heard of the legendary Shadows who seem to make the headlines all these days. And even they would give a chance to just get a glimpse of these legends. Little did they know that they would when their lives are slowly being threathened one by one and what they discover about the Shadows is rather surprising.
Prologue: Glitter coated their clothing
Chapter 1:"You guys take out people like lightning strikes."
Do take a look and drop your comments here if you don't have an LJ.
Muchappreciationandlove,
Lynxoxo
Two Hey! Say! JUMP fics. Written really recently. They've been published on LiveJournal. You don't have to know Hey! Say! JUMP to read my fics. Just putting it up here in case anyone's interested in reading. One's a Yuto/OC fiction and another is JUMP/OCs fiction. Enjoy, ne, minna? Btw, theivorykeys is my LJ username. =)
A Forbidden Rhapsody
Title: A Forbidden Rhapsody
Author: theivorykeys
Fandom: Hey! Say! JUMP
Pairing: Nakajima Yuto/OC
Genre: Romance, Fantasy, Suspense, Adventure
Rating: PG-13 (For language and fight scenes)
Disclaimer:
Type: Multi-chapter
Summary: Elementals are all male. An strange incident on New Year's Day leads to a discovery of a strong-willed, hard-headed, orphaned and adopted female Elemental. Her Element is unique and the only one to have ever existed. Yet, the person she's destined to be with is the only person who cannot touch her. Nakajima Yuto is drawn instantly but he has no idea why. Sparks fly and one wonders if they have been destined by the stars.
Chapter 1: It's just a normal reaction to a pretty boy, I told myself.
Chapter 2: "In a way, you're saying that I'm pretty?"
Chapter 3:It didn't at all speak of a bond of romance.
Fabrications of a Music Video
Title: Fabrications of a Music Video
Author: theivorykeys
Fandom: Hey! Say! JUMP
Pairing: NakajimaYuto/OC, YamadaRyosuke/OC, ChinenYuuri/OC, OkamotoKeito/OC, MorimotoRyutaro/OC, AriokaDaiki/OC, InooKei/OC, YaotomeHikaru/OC, TakakiYuya/OC, YabuKato/OC
Rating: PG (For language)
Disclaimer: I claim
Type: Multi-chapter
Summary: No one knows who they really are. Some say they are just Shadows. Even the Hey! Say! JUMP boys have heard of the legendary Shadows who seem to make the headlines all these days. And even they would give a chance to just get a glimpse of these legends. Little did they know that they would when their lives are slowly being threathened one by one and what they discover about the Shadows is rather surprising.
Prologue: Glitter coated their clothing
Chapter 1:"You guys take out people like lightning strikes."
Do take a look and drop your comments here if you don't have an LJ.
Muchappreciationandlove,
Lynxoxo
creating mischief@2:04 AM
.Friday, January 8, 2010 ' ♥
♥ : my table says donghae in a corner; new beginnings
my table says donghae in a corner; new beginning
It's officially the end of the week. I guess it's time that I blogged about school. =) Just to give my blog some life.
The first week's came and left in the blink of an eye. It moved extremely fast though at time it felt very slow.
I've finally settled down in class 4 Science 5 and now, time to begin the treacherous thing called Homework. Because of this Homework, I don't have time to write and I need to get the fanfic up as quick as possible before the idea flies from my mind. Oh well, it was going so well though.
Well, my class is a whole giant mixture from A1 all the way to M4.
The people there aren't bad. At least not yet.
Class photos will never be the same again without you guys. =) Neither will fangirling.
First week and I've already got tons of homework. For Accounts, at least. The rest of the homework hasn't begun piling up yet.
And I can't believe we have Malays teaching us Moral. Gah! They don't even take the subject and they're getting Malay teachers to lecture us in Moral. No wonder I'm falling asleep.
Not to mention my B.Melayu teacher. Each time she speaks, I begin to fall asleep. I need to stay awake.
And btw, I'm sick once more.
I never recovered. I've always has tiny little coughs but then the cold came back and now I'm sniffling and all. It's so annoying on the first week of school. I keep wanting to fall asleep. And the paper is shooo tough. I'm sure I'll fail B.Melayu the first term.
How the hell do you expect me to know my peribahasa's when you barely teach them in school? Whatever you teach is the same goddamned thing I've been learning since Form1. Hell no, since primary school
Kata Nama Am, Kata Nama Khas etc. It's the same things furthur more. No new syllables in the chapter. Stuuupid school.
Remind me to finish my Sejarah notes and Accounts crap. Not to mention tuition work and I have Chemistry tuition on Monday and Add Maths on Sunday and Literature class on Tuesday. Phew. Hectic schedule. I only have Wednesday's and Fridays and Saturdays to complete homework. I've got piano class on Thursday.
Not to mention that being sick saps my energy so I can't really stay awake for long.
And, your truly is the freeking monitor for class 4 Science 5. Me and my big mouth volunteering to become the assistant.
And since a teacher came in and asked for the monitor and we had none, they shoved me up to monitor and now Previta is the assistant. Gah!
I think I should probably go running like a mad woman just to get some stuff off my mind and to indulge in some quality time with myself and this flabby body of mine.
Hmm, you know, I didn't make resolutions this year.
Off topic.
And yes! The table I used to sit at had DongHae carved into the bottom right corner. Hilarious, eh?
My sister's chair in Moral class had the whole of SuJu written on it. Cool, eh?
I should leave my NewS mark there.
I'm crapping again.
Biology and Chemistry is going to be extremely tough since I'm so not used to doing my homework and I hate to do reports. Now, we have to draw diagrams and all that. I only hate the drawings part. Let's pray that Chemistry doesn't have drawings or I will die.
The drawings and diagrams are the only reason I don't do my Science homework.
The rest are getting on pretty okay. Till the time comes for me to do B.Melayu homework which I barely bother to do. ;p I'm going to force myself to and nap less in the afternoons. We've got homework to complete. See what I mean by having no time to myself? Friday nights are going to be extreme bliss since I'm giving myself some time then to relax.
And guess what? I've finally decided to take the Shanghai holiday pictures from the camera and into the computer. But those are the ones from the Sony camera and not my Canon. ;p There's going to be a lot, then. =) I'll try uploading to FB. The last time I tried uploading, it jammed my whole computer. Gah!
That's all for now. I'm still contemplating if I should do a post on a JE member each month just to liven up the blog a bit because I only get the chance to post once a week with homework and what not.
Muchappreciationandlove,
Lynxoxo
It's officially the end of the week. I guess it's time that I blogged about school. =) Just to give my blog some life.
The first week's came and left in the blink of an eye. It moved extremely fast though at time it felt very slow.
I've finally settled down in class 4 Science 5 and now, time to begin the treacherous thing called Homework. Because of this Homework, I don't have time to write and I need to get the fanfic up as quick as possible before the idea flies from my mind. Oh well, it was going so well though.
Well, my class is a whole giant mixture from A1 all the way to M4.
The people there aren't bad. At least not yet.
Class photos will never be the same again without you guys. =) Neither will fangirling.
First week and I've already got tons of homework. For Accounts, at least. The rest of the homework hasn't begun piling up yet.
And I can't believe we have Malays teaching us Moral. Gah! They don't even take the subject and they're getting Malay teachers to lecture us in Moral. No wonder I'm falling asleep.
Not to mention my B.Melayu teacher. Each time she speaks, I begin to fall asleep. I need to stay awake.
And btw, I'm sick once more.
I never recovered. I've always has tiny little coughs but then the cold came back and now I'm sniffling and all. It's so annoying on the first week of school. I keep wanting to fall asleep. And the paper is shooo tough. I'm sure I'll fail B.Melayu the first term.
How the hell do you expect me to know my peribahasa's when you barely teach them in school? Whatever you teach is the same goddamned thing I've been learning since Form1. Hell no, since primary school
Kata Nama Am, Kata Nama Khas etc. It's the same things furthur more. No new syllables in the chapter. Stuuupid school.
Remind me to finish my Sejarah notes and Accounts crap. Not to mention tuition work and I have Chemistry tuition on Monday and Add Maths on Sunday and Literature class on Tuesday. Phew. Hectic schedule. I only have Wednesday's and Fridays and Saturdays to complete homework. I've got piano class on Thursday.
Not to mention that being sick saps my energy so I can't really stay awake for long.
And, your truly is the freeking monitor for class 4 Science 5. Me and my big mouth volunteering to become the assistant.
And since a teacher came in and asked for the monitor and we had none, they shoved me up to monitor and now Previta is the assistant. Gah!
I think I should probably go running like a mad woman just to get some stuff off my mind and to indulge in some quality time with myself and this flabby body of mine.
Hmm, you know, I didn't make resolutions this year.
Off topic.
And yes! The table I used to sit at had DongHae carved into the bottom right corner. Hilarious, eh?
My sister's chair in Moral class had the whole of SuJu written on it. Cool, eh?
I should leave my NewS mark there.
I'm crapping again.
Biology and Chemistry is going to be extremely tough since I'm so not used to doing my homework and I hate to do reports. Now, we have to draw diagrams and all that. I only hate the drawings part. Let's pray that Chemistry doesn't have drawings or I will die.
The drawings and diagrams are the only reason I don't do my Science homework.
The rest are getting on pretty okay. Till the time comes for me to do B.Melayu homework which I barely bother to do. ;p I'm going to force myself to and nap less in the afternoons. We've got homework to complete. See what I mean by having no time to myself? Friday nights are going to be extreme bliss since I'm giving myself some time then to relax.
And guess what? I've finally decided to take the Shanghai holiday pictures from the camera and into the computer. But those are the ones from the Sony camera and not my Canon. ;p There's going to be a lot, then. =) I'll try uploading to FB. The last time I tried uploading, it jammed my whole computer. Gah!
That's all for now. I'm still contemplating if I should do a post on a JE member each month just to liven up the blog a bit because I only get the chance to post once a week with homework and what not.
Muchappreciationandlove,
Lynxoxo
~Watching an OPV of NEWS' FLY AGAIN, I almost cried. Only NewS can make me cry D~
creating mischief@8:47 PM
.Saturday, January 2, 2010 ' ♥
♥ : with confetti and ribbons; glitter and all
with confetti and ribbons; glitter and all
New Year's gone and come. Big deal about one day, right?
Most people make a giant fuss about it but I've got no idea why. It's just another day to me. To some, it might hold alot of significance but to me, it's just another day. And, I ushered in the New Year by reading a book. What a lot of good it did to me. I wasted what could have been one of the best performances on TV.
NHK's Japan Song Fest to usher in the New Year had Arashi and NYC Boys performing on it. Gah! I've seen Arashi in performance but I've seen so little of NYC Boys that I was quite upset I missed it. I had totally forgotten about it until it was past midnight and then, my sister told me. She herself had forgotten. Oh well. There's always next year.
School begins in slighty more than 24 hours.
It's frightening to begin school once more to appear to the same friends you've known for three years of your high school life only to be wrenched apart into the streaming of the classes.
Safe to say, I already know mine so, the terror's just been building and building. I hate to be separated from the ones I love so. And furthurmore, my contanst source of reassurance to the skills of my writing is being wrenched to my side. Not to mention, my only source of fangirling eventhough sometimes it bounces off, at least she understands what the hell I'm saying.
I wonder how I'm going to cope in a class who has not gotten used to me bursting into random Japanese songs at random moments.
Neither has the class ever experienced the kind of noise that escapes these lips of mine.
Neither have they ever experienced the fangirling that I'm so famous for.
Sigh. I'll have to built my writing reputation once more.
I used to be the writer of the class. Let's hope that no one unsurps my post at spinning stories out of nothing. Poetry, I don't care for but stories, yes. That is my strong point. I spin tales like a wildcat. I can pluck an idea out of thin air and spin wonderful tales out of it.
Yes, I realise I'm conceited but I'm proud of this ability. I take pride in being able to do this. I feel all warm and fuzzy inside when someone tells me that my story is good.
I've even received comments that my writing style was light and refreshing.
It's these tiny things that make me feel loved. Makes a writer feel loved.
I wonder if the class I'm in will see the abilities and accept me for being able to write and not badmouth me just because I get good English grades.
And I'm so afraid that the people in the class will be the rowdy crowd and turn the class to hell.
These are my little worries. I hope that I'll be able to bond with someone.
Not bond in the way the five of us have. Just someone I'm able to talk to in class.
I bet no one shares my same interests.
Well, I'll just have to find out, won't I?
I don't actually have much to say. Just want to liven the blog.
Muchappreciationandlove,
Lynxoxo
New Year's gone and come. Big deal about one day, right?
Most people make a giant fuss about it but I've got no idea why. It's just another day to me. To some, it might hold alot of significance but to me, it's just another day. And, I ushered in the New Year by reading a book. What a lot of good it did to me. I wasted what could have been one of the best performances on TV.
NHK's Japan Song Fest to usher in the New Year had Arashi and NYC Boys performing on it. Gah! I've seen Arashi in performance but I've seen so little of NYC Boys that I was quite upset I missed it. I had totally forgotten about it until it was past midnight and then, my sister told me. She herself had forgotten. Oh well. There's always next year.
School begins in slighty more than 24 hours.
It's frightening to begin school once more to appear to the same friends you've known for three years of your high school life only to be wrenched apart into the streaming of the classes.
Safe to say, I already know mine so, the terror's just been building and building. I hate to be separated from the ones I love so. And furthurmore, my contanst source of reassurance to the skills of my writing is being wrenched to my side. Not to mention, my only source of fangirling eventhough sometimes it bounces off, at least she understands what the hell I'm saying.
I wonder how I'm going to cope in a class who has not gotten used to me bursting into random Japanese songs at random moments.
Neither has the class ever experienced the kind of noise that escapes these lips of mine.
Neither have they ever experienced the fangirling that I'm so famous for.
Sigh. I'll have to built my writing reputation once more.
I used to be the writer of the class. Let's hope that no one unsurps my post at spinning stories out of nothing. Poetry, I don't care for but stories, yes. That is my strong point. I spin tales like a wildcat. I can pluck an idea out of thin air and spin wonderful tales out of it.
Yes, I realise I'm conceited but I'm proud of this ability. I take pride in being able to do this. I feel all warm and fuzzy inside when someone tells me that my story is good.
I've even received comments that my writing style was light and refreshing.
It's these tiny things that make me feel loved. Makes a writer feel loved.
I wonder if the class I'm in will see the abilities and accept me for being able to write and not badmouth me just because I get good English grades.
And I'm so afraid that the people in the class will be the rowdy crowd and turn the class to hell.
These are my little worries. I hope that I'll be able to bond with someone.
Not bond in the way the five of us have. Just someone I'm able to talk to in class.
I bet no one shares my same interests.
Well, I'll just have to find out, won't I?
I don't actually have much to say. Just want to liven the blog.
Muchappreciationandlove,
Lynxoxo
creating mischief@6:50 AM
.Friday, December 25, 2009 ' ♥
♥ : a trip down memory lane; how we and they have grown
a trip down memory lane; how we and they have grown
It's almost the end of the year and I'm feeling extremely sentimental. Oh, shoot me if you don't like being sentimental.
When I look back on this year, I look back on how I've changed and how the world around me has gone through subtle but meaningful changes.
I've done so many things that I have never bothered to do. The one that is most important to my heart is my fandubbing. For years, I have watched from afar people take their cameras/microphones etc. and fandubbed songs yet this is the first time I have done it and I've received a few positive comments.
I'm still going to continue to fandub but for the time being, I'll tone down my work since I don't have much to work with. My low notes are horrifying, I can't harmonize but I'm still proud of myself. I took the giant leap to push myself to do so.
As I look back, despite people having told me that me getting 7As for PMR was out of pure luck, I don't think it is. Yes, I did not work as hard as SM or V or the others who score straight As in class while I only score 2As but I think I have worked hard enough to score the 7As.
Through the running up and down and staying up late, I think I did work hard enough. Pooh pooh, to whatever you want to say.
Also, I think I have grown in mentality though I still retain the childishness that I'm famous for. Having celebrated the Mid-Winter Festival a few days back, I think I can say that I've finally grown another year older despite neither New Year's Day nor my birthday has arrived.
And, not to mention the bond that we share has grown even stronger and bigger. The web of friendship that binds us together, hearttoheart, mindtomind, despite what some may think has grown larger and has spread furthur.
We've gone through thick and thin together. We've pulled each other through depressions. We've been there for each other when nobody wanted to be. We've put up with each other despite our individual faults. We stuck together even when we got on each others nerves. We loved each other as if we were bonded from the first day. We've laughed over the most meaningless of things. We've gotten upset of the tiniest things. We've teased each other to no end. We've gotten mad together. We've gone on healthy highs together. We've smiled for the camera together numerous times. We've taken silly pictures and laugh over them despite us looking terrible in it. We've defended each other despite being wrong. We've sacrificed a million things for each other's happiness. We've taken insults as one and thrown them back as six. We've spent countless memorable moments together. Hell, we spent alot of memorable time together.
We've come a long way from the little quiet people we were when we first met in Form1.
We've come a long way from the personalities that we left behind when we grew closer.
We've come a long way from the silly, brainless, conceited brats that we shedded as we grew older.
Most of all, we've come a long way from being lonely to being surrounded by people we love.
I hope you guys know how much I love you guys. Not only for who you are but also for the person that you've made me become and never forget that. And remember, SueLynn gets married first.
And lastly, the source of my being sentimentalness. The boys whom I owe part of my life to. Hey! Say! JUMP, NewS, Arashi and KAT-TUN though it's only a tiny smattering of KAT-TUN.
As I was watching NewS' Weeeek, I realise how much our lovely boys have grown since the very day they've debuted as the nine member NewS and finally after loads of scandals to produce the six member NewS that all of us fangirls love and cherish to the bottom of our hearts.
It's surprising to see that they've matured so much especially the baby, Tegoshi and the ever endearing Kato.
Their member ai has grown over the years and they are closer than ever. You can tell in the way they enjoy each other's company. In the way they laugh freely among each other. In the way that they open up. In the way they tease each other without boundaries.Unlike KAT-TUN
I still look back onto their old videos and smile whenever I look at their angelic faces and compare them to the more recent videos and I smile even wider. It's hard to see that they've grown so much. You still expect them to be the silly, hilarious, endearing boys that they were when they debuted.
Not to mention, Hey! Say! JUMP. Despite the boys not having much group activity this year unless you count concerts, I still love them. They too have grown so much from the very first moment Hey! Say! 7 debuted with only Arioka Daiki, Nakajima Yuto, Chinen Yuuri, Yamada Ryosuke and Takaki Yuya.
They are no longer the babyfaced boys we use to squeal and jump over. They've finally outgrown those baby bodies and into the lean, sexy bodies of adults and teenagers. Takaki Yuya, Yabu Kota, Yaotome Hikaru and Inoo Kei are fast approaching their 21st year where they will finally make the official transition from teenager to adult.
It's shocking that when we first saw them, they were only young things still fresh off the junior team. Nakajima Yuto, Chinen Yuuri, Okamoto Keito and Yamada Ryosuke were merely fourteen when the official Hey! Say! JUMP debuted. Look at how far they've gone and they're soon to be seventeen next year.
It's real surprising at how much all of us, the world has grown. And we'll keep growing till the end of time.
We'll constantly look forward but when time calls for it, we'll take a glance backwards and look at all the awesome times spent doing awesome things and then soar briefly through the times when you've felt sadness and laugh before forgetting for another long period of time.
It's almost the end of the year and I'm feeling extremely sentimental. Oh, shoot me if you don't like being sentimental.
When I look back on this year, I look back on how I've changed and how the world around me has gone through subtle but meaningful changes.
I've done so many things that I have never bothered to do. The one that is most important to my heart is my fandubbing. For years, I have watched from afar people take their cameras/microphones etc. and fandubbed songs yet this is the first time I have done it and I've received a few positive comments.
I'm still going to continue to fandub but for the time being, I'll tone down my work since I don't have much to work with. My low notes are horrifying, I can't harmonize but I'm still proud of myself. I took the giant leap to push myself to do so.
As I look back, despite people having told me that me getting 7As for PMR was out of pure luck, I don't think it is. Yes, I did not work as hard as SM or V or the others who score straight As in class while I only score 2As but I think I have worked hard enough to score the 7As.
Through the running up and down and staying up late, I think I did work hard enough. Pooh pooh, to whatever you want to say.
Also, I think I have grown in mentality though I still retain the childishness that I'm famous for. Having celebrated the Mid-Winter Festival a few days back, I think I can say that I've finally grown another year older despite neither New Year's Day nor my birthday has arrived.
And, not to mention the bond that we share has grown even stronger and bigger. The web of friendship that binds us together, hearttoheart, mindtomind, despite what some may think has grown larger and has spread furthur.
We've gone through thick and thin together. We've pulled each other through depressions. We've been there for each other when nobody wanted to be. We've put up with each other despite our individual faults. We stuck together even when we got on each others nerves. We loved each other as if we were bonded from the first day. We've laughed over the most meaningless of things. We've gotten upset of the tiniest things. We've teased each other to no end. We've gotten mad together. We've gone on healthy highs together. We've smiled for the camera together numerous times. We've taken silly pictures and laugh over them despite us looking terrible in it. We've defended each other despite being wrong. We've sacrificed a million things for each other's happiness. We've taken insults as one and thrown them back as six. We've spent countless memorable moments together. Hell, we spent alot of memorable time together.
We've come a long way from the little quiet people we were when we first met in Form1.
We've come a long way from the personalities that we left behind when we grew closer.
We've come a long way from the silly, brainless, conceited brats that we shedded as we grew older.
Most of all, we've come a long way from being lonely to being surrounded by people we love.
I hope you guys know how much I love you guys. Not only for who you are but also for the person that you've made me become and never forget that. And remember, SueLynn gets married first.
And lastly, the source of my being sentimentalness. The boys whom I owe part of my life to. Hey! Say! JUMP, NewS, Arashi and KAT-TUN though it's only a tiny smattering of KAT-TUN.
As I was watching NewS' Weeeek, I realise how much our lovely boys have grown since the very day they've debuted as the nine member NewS and finally after loads of scandals to produce the six member NewS that all of us fangirls love and cherish to the bottom of our hearts.
It's surprising to see that they've matured so much especially the baby, Tegoshi and the ever endearing Kato.
Their member ai has grown over the years and they are closer than ever. You can tell in the way they enjoy each other's company. In the way they laugh freely among each other. In the way that they open up. In the way they tease each other without boundaries.
I still look back onto their old videos and smile whenever I look at their angelic faces and compare them to the more recent videos and I smile even wider. It's hard to see that they've grown so much. You still expect them to be the silly, hilarious, endearing boys that they were when they debuted.
Not to mention, Hey! Say! JUMP. Despite the boys not having much group activity this year unless you count concerts, I still love them. They too have grown so much from the very first moment Hey! Say! 7 debuted with only Arioka Daiki, Nakajima Yuto, Chinen Yuuri, Yamada Ryosuke and Takaki Yuya.
They are no longer the babyfaced boys we use to squeal and jump over. They've finally outgrown those baby bodies and into the lean, sexy bodies of adults and teenagers. Takaki Yuya, Yabu Kota, Yaotome Hikaru and Inoo Kei are fast approaching their 21st year where they will finally make the official transition from teenager to adult.
It's shocking that when we first saw them, they were only young things still fresh off the junior team. Nakajima Yuto, Chinen Yuuri, Okamoto Keito and Yamada Ryosuke were merely fourteen when the official Hey! Say! JUMP debuted. Look at how far they've gone and they're soon to be seventeen next year.
It's real surprising at how much all of us, the world has grown. And we'll keep growing till the end of time.
We'll constantly look forward but when time calls for it, we'll take a glance backwards and look at all the awesome times spent doing awesome things and then soar briefly through the times when you've felt sadness and laugh before forgetting for another long period of time.
Muchloveandappreciation,
Lynxoxo
Lynxoxo
creating mischief@7:26 PM
.Wednesday, December 23, 2009 ' ♥
♥ : tears of joy; overwhelming
tears of joy; overwhelming
I'mma make this short and simple. Not really much in a blogging mood. I think getting straight As isn't very much to blog about. =)
Thanks right. You heard me correct. Straight 7As baybeh. Who'd ever thought.
Acknowledgements:
Thank you to my parents for ferrying me up and down from school and to project sites.
Especially to my mom for all her help in getting us special privileges for our Victoria Institution visit. Mom, you're the best.
And to Daddy, for putting up with me when I refused to study.
Thank you especially to Sue Lynn for having helped me through Geography and explaining everything to me even when my questions are blonde ones. I love you, dear.
Thank you to those who have helped me through all my subjects, specifically my ex-tuition teacher, Ms. Brenda Yeoh and her sister, my current tuition teacher, Ms. Eunice Yeoh for having pulled me through Science and Maths.
Thank you to the five best friends anyone can have. You guys know who you are. I'll always love you.
And lastly, thank you to NewS and Hey! Say! JUMP and Arashi for having kept me sane through this period of stress, tension, anger, frustration...you name it.
I'mma make this short and simple. Not really much in a blogging mood. I think getting straight As isn't very much to blog about. =)
Thanks right. You heard me correct. Straight 7As baybeh. Who'd ever thought.
Acknowledgements:
Thank you to my parents for ferrying me up and down from school and to project sites.
Especially to my mom for all her help in getting us special privileges for our Victoria Institution visit. Mom, you're the best.
And to Daddy, for putting up with me when I refused to study.
Thank you especially to Sue Lynn for having helped me through Geography and explaining everything to me even when my questions are blonde ones. I love you, dear.
Thank you to those who have helped me through all my subjects, specifically my ex-tuition teacher, Ms. Brenda Yeoh and her sister, my current tuition teacher, Ms. Eunice Yeoh for having pulled me through Science and Maths.
Thank you to the five best friends anyone can have. You guys know who you are. I'll always love you.
And lastly, thank you to NewS and Hey! Say! JUMP and Arashi for having kept me sane through this period of stress, tension, anger, frustration...you name it.
Muchappreciationandlove,
Lynxoxo
creating mischief@9:32 PM
.Tuesday, December 22, 2009 ' ♥
♥ : sparkle, sparkle; filled with nonsensical stuff
sparkle, sparkle; filled with nonsensical stuff
Turns out, I won't be able to celebrate Christmas this year. Since I'm not Christian but my grandaunt is, she usually holds a small family get-together but this year my greatgrandmother and their maid is suffering from conjunctivities. (Is that how you spell it?)
So, no Christmas celebrations this year.
It's actually no big deal to me. I don't really celebrate either. I just eat. And eat. And watch TV. And read. And listen to the whole bunch of relatives make noise. =)
Big flop though since my toddler and kid cousins are back and this is their first Christmas with us if I'm not mistaken. They're on their summer break so they're gonna be here till after Chinese New Year but they're on a super-tight schedule so, I don't knowlah!
Hmmm...
Oh yes! Major news. Shonen Club's on NHK (Astro Channel 963) right? Usually shown at 8/9 something right?
For the past few weeks, I've been waiting and waiting to watch Shonen Club but each time I turn on the telly at the above said times, it's not there.
At first, I thought that NHK had switched the satellites broadcasting to Malaysia to the satellite that doesn't broadcast Shounen...NHK has three satellites. Only two broadcast ShonenClub.
When I checked the Astro's website that day for programme listing after going through loads of LiveJournals for information and stumbled across one saying that the broadcast time is at 12:10AM for Singapore.
When I checked, turns out, Malaysia's also showing it at 12:10AM in the morning.
I was dejected. I doubt my parents will allow me to stay up so late when the next day is a school day. Bummer.
I have neglected my novel writing for so long that I feel so guilty. Originally, it was supposed to be done by the end of this year yet, I procrastinated and procrastinated till it's barely half-complete.
Oh well.
The next post might be a rant post on some idiot...Should I provide a name? I really want to.
Muchloveandappreciation,
Lynxoxo
Turns out, I won't be able to celebrate Christmas this year. Since I'm not Christian but my grandaunt is, she usually holds a small family get-together but this year my greatgrandmother and their maid is suffering from conjunctivities. (Is that how you spell it?)
So, no Christmas celebrations this year.
It's actually no big deal to me. I don't really celebrate either. I just eat. And eat. And watch TV. And read. And listen to the whole bunch of relatives make noise. =)
Big flop though since my toddler and kid cousins are back and this is their first Christmas with us if I'm not mistaken. They're on their summer break so they're gonna be here till after Chinese New Year but they're on a super-tight schedule so, I don't knowlah!
Hmmm...
Oh yes! Major news. Shonen Club's on NHK (Astro Channel 963) right? Usually shown at 8/9 something right?
For the past few weeks, I've been waiting and waiting to watch Shonen Club but each time I turn on the telly at the above said times, it's not there.
At first, I thought that NHK had switched the satellites broadcasting to Malaysia to the satellite that doesn't broadcast Shounen...NHK has three satellites. Only two broadcast ShonenClub.
When I checked the Astro's website that day for programme listing after going through loads of LiveJournals for information and stumbled across one saying that the broadcast time is at 12:10AM for Singapore.
When I checked, turns out, Malaysia's also showing it at 12:10AM in the morning.
I was dejected. I doubt my parents will allow me to stay up so late when the next day is a school day. Bummer.
I have neglected my novel writing for so long that I feel so guilty. Originally, it was supposed to be done by the end of this year yet, I procrastinated and procrastinated till it's barely half-complete.
Oh well.
The next post might be a rant post on some idiot...Should I provide a name? I really want to.
Muchloveandappreciation,
Lynxoxo
creating mischief@10:56 PM
.Tuesday, December 15, 2009 ' ♥
♥ : the thrill of words; another masterpiece produced
the thrill of words; another masterpiece produced
I think the title says all. I've got another fanfiction up. This time, I've posted it to a livejournal fiction writing community. It's a Hey! Say! JUMP Fanfiction baybeh!
It's written at www.theivorykeys.livejournal.com
Title: A Forbidden Rhapsody: Chapter 1
Chapter Title: Where Ends Begin
Author: theivorykeys
Fandom: Hey! Say! JUMP
Pairing: NakajimaYutoxOC
Genre: Romance, Fantasy, Suspense, Adventure
Rating: G (Might change later)
Disclaimer: I own nothing but the plot and my OC
Type: Multi-chapter
Notes: It's written in the third person POV but it is also told from the first person POV.
Summary: Elementals are all male. A strange incident on New Year's Day leads to the discovery of a strong-willed, hard-headed, orphaned and adopted female Elemental. Her Element is unique and the only one to have ever existed. Yet, the person she's destined to be with is the only person who cannot touch her. Nakajima Yuto is drawn instantly but he has no idea why. Sparks fly and one wonders if they have been destined by the stars.
Muchappreciationandlove,
Lynxoxo
I think the title says all. I've got another fanfiction up. This time, I've posted it to a livejournal fiction writing community. It's a Hey! Say! JUMP Fanfiction baybeh!
It's written at www.theivorykeys.livejournal.com
Title: A Forbidden Rhapsody: Chapter 1
Chapter Title: Where Ends Begin
Author: theivorykeys
Fandom: Hey! Say! JUMP
Pairing: NakajimaYutoxOC
Genre: Romance, Fantasy, Suspense, Adventure
Rating: G (Might change later)
Disclaimer: I own nothing but the plot and my OC
Type: Multi-chapter
Notes: It's written in the third person POV but it is also told from the first person POV.
Summary: Elementals are all male. A strange incident on New Year's Day leads to the discovery of a strong-willed, hard-headed, orphaned and adopted female Elemental. Her Element is unique and the only one to have ever existed. Yet, the person she's destined to be with is the only person who cannot touch her. Nakajima Yuto is drawn instantly but he has no idea why. Sparks fly and one wonders if they have been destined by the stars.
Muchappreciationandlove,
Lynxoxo
creating mischief@9:14 PM
.Sunday, December 13, 2009 ' ♥
♥ : the wonders of pretty boys; infatuation re-strikes
the wonders of pretty boys; infatuation re-strikes
I've wanted to fangirl here for sometime but I never found something good enough to grace the page of my blog. Chewah~! (to quote Pn. Rozaini)
So, to all non-fangirls, skip this post. It's nothing to you people. You'd never understand.
Once more, it's back to the fangirling of the NewS boys.
Their ranking still stands at
I moved Shige from third place to second place becuause he's more adorable now than he was before. The NewS Winter Party Diamond concert proved that. And he's more lovable and more able to make me laugh and also squeal at the same time. Not to mention his genius of his Shalala Tanbarin music video.
Kei-chan remains in fourth because my sister's already staked her claim on him though I silently fangirl over him.
Tego-nyan is a recent addition to my fangirl list after my sister decided to fangirl over Tegomass and dragged me into it. Watching old Tegomass videos made me fall in love with Tego-nyan and his genuine laugh and also his sadisticness and his matureness.
Massu. Now, Massu's a whole different story. You people have heard his story before so I shan't repeat it.
I just love NewS. They're such a powerful drug.
My ever-lasting, non-toxic but highly addictive drug.
I was recently watching the NewS Winter Party Diamon concert along with it's documentary. The concert's much more interesting now though I preferred their debut concert, the Never Ending Wonderful Story concert. It's the best compared to NWPD and Pacific.
Jaa, boku ga "daichuki~" te iu-tara, minna mo "daichuki~" te kudasai. Ikimasu. "daichuki~"
~Keiichiro Koyama at the NewSWinterPartyDiamond Concert introductions in Osaka Dome~
I've wanted to fangirl here for sometime but I never found something good enough to grace the page of my blog. Chewah~! (to quote Pn. Rozaini)
So, to all non-fangirls, skip this post. It's nothing to you people. You'd never understand.
Once more, it's back to the fangirling of the NewS boys.
Their ranking still stands at
1st place: Masuda Takahisa a.k.a. Massu
2nd place: Shigeaki Kato a.k.a. Shige
3rd place: Tegoshi Yuya a.k.a. Tego-nya
4th place: Keiichiro Koyama a.k.a. Kei-chan
5th place: Yamashita Tomohisa a.k.a. YamaPi
6th place: Nishikido Ryo a.k.a. Ry0-chan
Yes, all Ryo fangirls. Kill me if you wish but I don't give a damn. I'm not Ryo fangirl and the only reason YamaPi is at second last place is because he's lost the appeal once the rumours of his supposed girlfriend started to fly. Actually, I don't really give a damn but he doesn't really rank higher than my top four. I used to be a huge YamaPi fan but he lost the appeal though I still squeal at him but I don't fangirl anymore.I moved Shige from third place to second place becuause he's more adorable now than he was before. The NewS Winter Party Diamond concert proved that. And he's more lovable and more able to make me laugh and also squeal at the same time. Not to mention his genius of his Shalala Tanbarin music video.
Kei-chan remains in fourth because my sister's already staked her claim on him though I silently fangirl over him.
Tego-nyan is a recent addition to my fangirl list after my sister decided to fangirl over Tegomass and dragged me into it. Watching old Tegomass videos made me fall in love with Tego-nyan and his genuine laugh and also his sadisticness and his matureness.
Massu. Now, Massu's a whole different story. You people have heard his story before so I shan't repeat it.
I just love NewS. They're such a powerful drug.
My ever-lasting, non-toxic but highly addictive drug.
I was recently watching the NewS Winter Party Diamon concert along with it's documentary. The concert's much more interesting now though I preferred their debut concert, the Never Ending Wonderful Story concert. It's the best compared to NWPD and Pacific.
The NWPD is what triggered the sudden burst of fangirlness.
*bigsmileandgrin*
Muchloveandappreciation,
Lynxoxo
creating mischief@8:13 AM
.Friday, December 11, 2009 ' ♥
♥ : a little notice; might not be real
a little notice; might not be real
Hewwwoooo to all the little darlings who stalk my blog. I might be changing my bloglink soon reasons being:
1) Someone I don't like's stalking the blog
2) I'm bored with the bloglink
3) It's too long
4) Someone seems to find it ridiculous
5) Someone copied it in a way
6) All of the above
You choose, darlings. Let me leave it to your brains. And this time, I'll inform everyone on my bloglist since when I just tell you guys to relink with a relink page, no one does. *bigsmile* =)
Or maybe I should just private it for a moment since it's so dead.
I don't know.
I might not even change.
Well, darlings. You just gotta wait.
Muchloveandappreciation,
Lynxoxo
And for the record, I'm in love with YamaPi. Who cares if he's got a girlfriend? Staring at him is enough to make you fall in love. And the accent is shooo smexy. Okay, he doesn't have an accent. It's a slang. But I still love him.
Hewwwoooo to all the little darlings who stalk my blog. I might be changing my bloglink soon reasons being:
1) Someone I don't like's stalking the blog
2) I'm bored with the bloglink
3) It's too long
4) Someone seems to find it ridiculous
5) Someone copied it in a way
6) All of the above
You choose, darlings. Let me leave it to your brains. And this time, I'll inform everyone on my bloglist since when I just tell you guys to relink with a relink page, no one does. *bigsmile* =)
Or maybe I should just private it for a moment since it's so dead.
I don't know.
I might not even change.
Well, darlings. You just gotta wait.
Muchloveandappreciation,
Lynxoxo
And for the record, I'm in love with YamaPi. Who cares if he's got a girlfriend? Staring at him is enough to make you fall in love. And the accent is shooo smexy. Okay, he doesn't have an accent. It's a slang. But I still love him.
creating mischief@12:16 AM
.Friday, December 4, 2009 ' ♥
♥ : stupidity grips my heart; is that so wrong?
stupidity grips my heart; is that so wrong?
Another emo post. Skip if you don't want to be emo or read another of my emo crap. It's the same situation as the one before. Enjoy:
I feel stuupid.
I feel used.
I feel like a joke.
I feel like a girl-in-love.
I should never have trusted you and betrayed my parents' trust and my own promise to myself.
I should never have ditched my girlfriends just to spend an hour with you if I had known that the time I spend with you was useless.
And couple rings? If you had truly wanted them, you would have gotten them anyway despite me saying that I don't wear accessories. If you had gotten them, I would have worn it no matter what.
But you didn't.
And your Facebook decides to declare that you love her and I don't seem a mention of me.
Maybe I should just forget about you and throw you away.
The same way you play with my feelings and my heart.
One day, there's going to be a post here saying that you no longer mean anything to me and that I realised I was a fool for loving and trusting you and it will say about how I laughed when I look back on those times and that you can kiss my ass goodbye and it will be filled with Taylor Swift's White Horse lyrics.
So, there.
I'm not a force to be messed with.
Don't worry. You'll get a spot in my heart when I infuse the way you treated me into the character in my book that also broke the heroine's heart the same way you did. By playing with her feelings and leading her on.
Watch out, W.
I'll always be waiting and watching. For that moment when you're at your weakest. For the moment when I will strike.
You'll be sorry you ever decided to play me because I'll get you back in ways you never imagined.
Muchappreciationandlove,
Lynxoxo
Another emo post. Skip if you don't want to be emo or read another of my emo crap. It's the same situation as the one before. Enjoy:
I feel stuupid.
I feel used.
I feel like a joke.
I feel like a girl-in-love.
I should never have trusted you and betrayed my parents' trust and my own promise to myself.
I should never have ditched my girlfriends just to spend an hour with you if I had known that the time I spend with you was useless.
And couple rings? If you had truly wanted them, you would have gotten them anyway despite me saying that I don't wear accessories. If you had gotten them, I would have worn it no matter what.
But you didn't.
And your Facebook decides to declare that you love her and I don't seem a mention of me.
Maybe I should just forget about you and throw you away.
The same way you play with my feelings and my heart.
One day, there's going to be a post here saying that you no longer mean anything to me and that I realised I was a fool for loving and trusting you and it will say about how I laughed when I look back on those times and that you can kiss my ass goodbye and it will be filled with Taylor Swift's White Horse lyrics.
So, there.
I'm not a force to be messed with.
Don't worry. You'll get a spot in my heart when I infuse the way you treated me into the character in my book that also broke the heroine's heart the same way you did. By playing with her feelings and leading her on.
Watch out, W.
I'll always be waiting and watching. For that moment when you're at your weakest. For the moment when I will strike.
You'll be sorry you ever decided to play me because I'll get you back in ways you never imagined.
Muchappreciationandlove,
Lynxoxo
creating mischief@7:59 AM
